UGH!!! I hate my mother. I hate her sooooooooooo much!!! I wish I was in college already so I could get the hell away from her. She fucking listens in on my conversation that I am having with MY father!! And then goes and says that she wasn't listening in on my conversation. How could she have known what I was talking about unless she was listening in? Answer me that cause I would really like to know. I really would.

Havok's last show was tonight and I was planning on going for over a month and guess what? I didn't go. Guess why. My mother!!! I don't have a car for the weekend because the only 2 cars that are home that I can drive don't have tags and insurance on them and my dad has the white van. So my mother has to drive me everywhere. Fun....NOT!!!! I can't wait until my car gets tags on it this week. I really can't. It's been inspected and everything, all it needs is tags, title and insurance and I can drive it. So my mother didn't want to drive me to the show, then I had a way there and she decided to change her mind at the last minute to that she wouldn't pick me up. So my ride there fell through because of that.

Next august cannot come soon enough. Then I will be away at college and only have to deal with her for 5 months out of the year when I am home for breaks. August please hurry up and come so I can get the hell out of maryland!! Please!!!!

Yeah you heard right! I got my bass! And a hard case for Dork! This week is turning out to be awesome! I'll post pictures of my bass as soon as I take them. YAY!!!!!! My bass is a Red Fender Squier with a white pick guard. Yes the same brand as Dork. Only Dork is black with a white pick guard and stickers all over her. Well I've gots to go. Bye!

Well as you all probably know yesterday Jeff decided we should go on a break. Well this morning I talked to him cause I needed to and well now we're no longer on a break! We're all better! YAY! I also went to Center Stage on a field trip to see King Lear today and that was fun. I got to hang out with Chelsea and Cait all day practically. I almost cried this morning. No wait...I did cry when I was talking to Jeff and he actually put his arms around me and held me to comfort me. And we actually held hands today. Yay! Well I'm going to go. Just felt like telling you all that. So yeah...I'm happy today. Much happier then yesterday. I'm most likely going to be doing something with Jeff on friday. So yeah...everything is fine and back to normal with us. So that's good. Well bye!

Yeah...Jeff and I are on a break and I'm miserable. I really am. I haven't really stopped crying since it happened and that was at 12:20 today. It happened at lunch. I hope it doesn't last long cause I feel like shit. I really do but I'm going to go to Marching Band tonight anyway. No use staying home being miserable. If I told how it happened then you know. If not then find out from someone that knows cause I really don't feel like repeating it cause I don't want to start crying. Well I'm going to go. I have to get ready for Guard. Bye.

Ok so I actually have stuff to do this weekend. I've got a guitar and bass lesson today at 6 and J2A at church. But the problem is Saw II comes out today and Jeff wants me to go with him to see it and I really want to go. I almost have enough money. I just need some change. But my mom might not let me go and I really want to go. Plus Jess might hurt me if I don't go to J2A cause I haven't been to any meetings yet. THIS REALLY SUCKS!!! One of the reason I want to see Saw II is cause I really want to hang out with Jeff outside of school since I haven't really hung out with him outside of school in over a month and he really wants to hang out with me too. This really sucks! One weekend I can't do shit cause my weekend is already planned out for me and I can't change my plans. DAMN YOU MARCHING BAND!!! Well I'm going to go. Hopefully I can't get this figured out so I can let Jeff know if I can go or not.

So...I'm bored and haven't been posting as much. Well my week and weekend is really busy. It involves...Tomorrow-School, miss first 2 periods to go to my gay ass middle school to try and 'recruit' people for marching band, come back and go to last 2 periods. Friday-School, Guitar and Bass lesson, J2A aka Church with Jess, Joey, and Cait. Saturday-Nothing till 3:30ish. Then I go BACK to school cause I have a Parade for Marching Band. Get back around 11:30ish. Sunday-Church and BACK to school at 1:30ish for Parkville/Kenwood Invitational. Come home at 5:30ish and then stay home. Then monday I have school. So basically I'm going to be at school all weekend...man this sucks!

Anyway...Jess's homecoming was fun only there was a lot of drama and I mean A LOT! I was bored all last weekend except saturday night and part of sunday. I had nothing to do and I was home alone practically all weekend. It really sucked.

I'm getting sick of school already. And it's FREEZING cold in my school! I can't feel my hands from when I get to school until I get home and get warm. That's how cold it is. And there will be no heat until monday! Not fair!

Oh yeah...I have a feeling that I'm going to be getting sick really soon. Like sundayish. Cause I've been outside a lot and it's cold and I've only had my hoodie on over top a short sleeve shirt and jeans and it rained yesterday and I didn't know Jeff had already gotten to school so I stood outside in the rain and cold for like 15 minutes waiting for him yesterday morning and then I stood outside waiting for my mom to pick me up after Guard last night for another 15 minutes and I had to walk home in the rain from my bus stop. Plus I'm going to be outside like all day saturday and sunday. So yeah...I'm going to be getting sick soon. I know it for a fact. Well I need sleep seeing the fact that I have to perform in the morning and I don't think it'll do me any good being half asleep cause I have to SPIN a flag. Not TWIRL!! Spin! We spin...we do not twirl. So good night!

Here's the pictures...hopefully they will work this time. If not then I'm not posting them again. Sorry. But enjoy!

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I said I would post pictures from this weekend so here they are. Enjoy!

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Tonight was homecoming and it was a lot better then last year. And I mean a lot better! Mike wasn't there so of course it was better. Jess went and Jeff did also. He surprisingly said that he would come because I asked him if he would come and he asked if he had to and I told him that I would like him to so he said that he would. They played 1 good song and I got Jeff to dance! GO ME! It was a slow dance too. Hehe.

Homecoming Parade was ok but I want to kill Cherie! I really do. It's a long story. Homecoming Game was awesome! The score was 48-6. We won and we played Dundulk. We creamed them! It was so great because 10 seconds into the game we got a touchdown and then 20 seconds later we got another. We got like 7 touchdowns and 6 field goals. Yeah...

Conformation Sleepover was amazing! We played Truth or Dare and this guy Brian was dared to do the chicken dance in only his boxers. He did with the light off but I got 2 pictures and they were in the dark but they turned out really bright.

Tomorrow I have church and then I go look at Basses so I can get an idea of what kind I want to get when I get mine. Bass is easy! Really easy! And I really think I'm going to be getting a Bass soon. I hope I do at least. Well I'm going to go. I'm tired and my stomach hurts so I'm not feeling that great. I will post pics from Homecoming and the Truth or Dare game when I'm feeling better. Night!